I've been married to a husband who is about one generation older than me for four years. My sexual experience is only with my current husband. Recently, sex from start to finish takes about fifteen minutes. He doesn't do cunnilingus or hand jobs, so I don't know what that feels like. There's work-like sex maybe once a month. I'm not a fleshlight...! I think this to myself, but if I express my dissatisfaction, the frequency might decrease even more, so I've never shown my anger. Watching AV and masturbating has become daily routine; doing it twice a day is standard. I wanted to be treated like this too much and couldn't hold back, so I applied for an AV role. Even if I get caught, I plan to say that the husband who only does bland sex for fifteen minutes is at fault. The male actor was someone I often see in AVs. In my mind, he's quite a famous person, so I was really nervous. When he opened my clit with his fingers and licked it, it felt so good that my body tensed up on its own. When he played with inside me, warm fluid kept flowing out, and the pleasure was completely different from penetration. Especially when he inserted his fingers while licking my clit at the same time, I really came undone. When giving a blowjob, hearing him let out breaths like 'Feels good...' or 'Haah...' made me happy, and just licking it got me excited too. Hearing him ask 'Can I put it in?' in an unendurable way was also very exciting. Every time it entered me, there was a squelching sound that was incredibly lewd. I thought my husband's sex isn't even worth calling sex. For a while, I should be able to masturbate while remembering this day's experience.
