The marital relationship is good. There's plenty of nightlife. But even so, there have been many nights that weren't satisfying. At times like those, I would indulge in casual flings to let off steam and play the role of a 'good wife' at home. That precarious balance collapsed when I realized it had been 20 years since we got married. Would I really end up as a woman hiding my desire-filled self...? As soon as I started feeling that way, I couldn't sit still. I wanted to be held more and more. I wanted to feel the joy of being a woman. And I wanted someone to see me like that.
